For Jared

I can't find the words to say
Only this ever growing ache
A fear I thought was gone
Came alive as you died
Shock and horror
At the irony of everything my stupid mouth was saying
My tears of "oh so painful agony"
Caused by little pebble problems
They all fall away
As I hear the news
And I can remember you
So young
So strong so full of live and love and jokes and your beautiful smile
And you're gone
And you're gone
I had so many chances, every day I thought I had to tell you the truth
Its too late
I can't breathe
I can't breathe