That feeling, when you just don't care anymore. When your mind is numb and your fingers ache and your heart is heavy and there is not one drop of interest or motivation left besides sheer determination.
Ever had it? Well it has a name. Its called:
NANOWRIMO: DAY 29
Yep. Folks, I am DONE. D O N E, done. My novel is 50,334 words long and I did it in 19 days because on day 10 I realized that my original novel had become a box of impossiblity. I could have continued it, and everyone is calling me a quitter, but I would rather be called a quitter and write a decent story that actually has a nice message and good, likeablish characters, and have more fun doing it and get an A, than have a crummy novel with no point and stupid annoying characters.
Seriously, they were annoying. And stupid. Anyyyyways! Well I am so glad to be done. I think I remember this thing called a social life... it is vague. "Like a dream." " Or a dream of a dream." But I remember! I'm actually going to go do something this weekend. And maybe not fail Algebra 2. And not be so tired that I don't feel like being alive. And I'm going to read and read! But most of all I'm going Take a few deep breaths and be glad that I'm as blessed as I am.
But oh dear, my blanket excuse is gone.
"Laura you need to clean your room." "NANOWRIMO!"
"Laura can you do the dishes?" "I really need to NANOWRIMO."
"Laura do your algebra 2/american lit/world history/art/web design/ASB homework!" "NANOWRIMO! I'll get good grades again in December!"
"Laura why are you on facebook instead of working?" "We're chatting about NANOWRIMO!"
"Laura why are there taxes?" "NANOWRIMO!"
"Laura why are there earthquakes?" "NANOWRIMO!"
"Laura why is there poverty?" "NANOWRIMO!"
You see? That is the beauty of the blanket excuse. It covers everything. And now it's gone.
What am I going to do?
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