Memories

Well I'm back. Revisiting the old blog and remembering old times. I miss you, past self. I miss your motivation, your energy and your consistent hope. Come back to me someday <3 

Quote

  "Life had changed as I knew it. And now it's changed again, luv. See, I don't worry about you remembering me.....it's that girl on the road you keep forgetting.
"My business is to create. It doesn't even matter what you do. "
You told me that, remember. P.S....
So go home. Go find it. Find that thing that makes you like nobody else."


  I love this quote because it reminds me that the what and the when and the how isn't always as important as the actual do. I love this quote because it is said in an Irish accent. I love this quote because it is full of hope for the future. I love this quote because it means that even when life throws those unexpected twists into your path, as long as you remember who you are and what you're meant for, everything will somehow be okay. 

   I love this quote because it is everything I want to be.

A New Beginning

Okay so it is a new year. And sadly but excitedly I've begun a new blog. This one will still be filled with words every now and then, but probably not as often. If you're still interested in reading, the new one is here: 

http://astoryiswaiting.blogspot.com/

And I'd love it if you would stop by :) 

Almost forgot to write

Oh dear I almost didn't write! That was horrible!
Well tonight was lovely and beautiful and magical and just exactly what I needed! Surprises are the best, especially when they entail corn mazes and best friends and everything you couldn't believe you'd see that day. I'm not going to write much because I'm soooo tired.
Here's a poem just because.

If I had the ears to hear
And the eyes to see
And the voice to sing a thousand songs
I would still be deaf and blind and mute compared to the echos of your unending love
I could sing a tune of sunshine
And bask beneath the sweet surrender of peace
I'll fall into a deep sleep
And dream, dream, dream
I can go anywhere so long as your fire fills me
I can be anything, as long as I have You
I can feel your arms around me, even when the darkness seems too great
You are my everything
And everything
And everything

I'll always praise

Total word Count! Whoooo hooo!

My total word count since beginning creative writing is: 157,600 words.

Wow. I'm feeling excited.

202

I'm lost in that dismal abyss that sneaks up and catches hold of me sometimes. I'm not really myself when I'm in it, and yet in some ways I'm more myself when I'm caught in the trap than at any other moment. I'm a startburst, a contradiction of flavor. With every moment everything changes and becomes as if it had always been that way and will always be that way and then in the next instant it is all gone again, washed away like a shell lost in the waves. I can't get past the failures and the heartaches. I can't get hold of the girl I used to be. I can't make it past this fear that keeps on taking me in its grip. I'm stuck in the fear, not of the unknown, but the fear of believe I know what's coming. There doesn't seem to be hope for surprises left. Life is an endless plain of sand, stretching onward, unchanging and bland, without even a blade of green fighting upward towards the sky. I can't help it. I can't help this anymore. 
I just broke the promise I made. I've broken it a thousand times, and now it's broken me. 

Poem

In dreamlight woven

I feel the sweet surrender as a chocolate song sweeps in

It’s rivers of notes and pools of allurement

Delve in, dive deep

There’s nothing to lose

And endless opportunities

Eternal ways to win