Sunday, June 30, 2013

An adventure is waiting....

Claira Bobskinders was bored. After all, there’s only so much one can do during the summer holiday, before everything begins to feel mundane. Claira asked her mother why this is, but Mother was busy reading her favorite volume of Shakespeare (which she suggested Claira try, but she said, “No thanks,” and left it at that) and told her daughter that it was because little girls are lazy during the summer and need more things to work on. But Claira didn’t want to work. She didn’t want to do nothing either though, and it is during moments when one does not want to do nothing, and doesn’t know what one wants to do, that one is apt to do something extraordinary.
Claira decided to go outside, for unless a person has a very old house filled with mysterious nooks and crannies and dusty attics on hand, outside is the best place to find adventure. Now, on the left side of the Bobskinders’ house was a garden near the garage, but gardens like this, filled with carrots and pansies, are no fun at all. So Claira went to the right, where there was a small thicket that led down the hill to where the fence was. On the other side of the fence lay the creek and beyond lay the hills and beyond that was the city, where Dad went to work every day in a big office building. But it was to the thicket that Claira went to sit. She crisscrossed her legs and kicked off her shoes, for she was not very fond of shoes, and thought that on such a nice day, it would be pleasant to wiggle her toes in the cool grass.

Saturday, June 29, 2013

I'M A PUBLISHED AUTHOR. 

I'm a little excited about it :] 

Rain

rain falls in my heart
tell myself don't think those thoughts
won't do any good
it'll only bring you down

I look around and all I see
are spring leaves rotting on an aspen tree
waiting for the day
when fall will finally call

they say I've got time
and live their lives
livin' learning and don't ask why
and they don't know what I do
what I'm too afraid to tell

Another random poem

I said I wouldn't stay up late
But every time I close my eyes and try to sleep
Those thoughts come back, come knocking at my head

I said goodnight and you said hurry up and brush your teeth
I say I love you and you don't say anything
And silence makes me want to scream

I can feel it in my head
Dizzy, fuzzy spinning again and again
It's heavy and it's pulling me down

Rain or shine life isn't what it was
And the questions fill my head and start to pile up
I can't get it from my mind
Is this all there really is?

They talk about the fire and
They talk about desire and
They talk about what talking can't ever bring to light

I want to feel that flame again
Want to know it deep within
I love and trust and I truly do believe
So why am I still silly stupid discontented little me?

Poetry again

I take a quick glance in the mirror 
But you don't see
And I duck my eyes before you catch me 
Pretend like I'm not thinking bout anything at all 
You look up
Quick, stare at the wall
I can't stop the beating of my heart
Every moment thickens the hurt 
These stairs are getting steeper 
And this life is getting deeper 
I'm falling and I'm screaming inside 
Again
Everywhere the silent battles rage 
And people talk and talk about nothing 
Every day's an empty page
Start to finish 
I think of this 
Even as I tell myself that I'm not thinkin' bout you
Inside know it's true
I can't help it 
Can't help it 

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Sigh....

Wow. I was way overconfident.

I totally thought that I'd have no problem staying in the habit of posting on my blog, but here it is like almost a week since I have even looked at it! I've been editing, editing, editing and it's taking way longer than I thought it would, and way more energy too. I'm so sick of this book. Just when I've convinced myself that it's the dumbest, most cliché thing ever, a pretty good section pops up and makes me think it could be decent after all. And then, as I'm starting to feel better, I'll hit another horribly dull, confusing, boring, random, or just plain what-was-I-thinking-when-I-wrote this? scene. Argh. I can't wait to be done.

Anyways, pointless ranting aside, I'll be back to posting every day on the 30th, if not before.

Friday, June 21, 2013

Poem

Once upon a time, in a land faraway,

           I had my own dream house 

All stocked with images and nations in every hideaway 

                                  It sat upon the water 

     And floated in the sky

    And all the dreams, mother's, son's and daughters' 


                       Were too young and strong to die

I waited there for ages 
In that pearly white place 

  I don't know where or how, but then came the changes 


And nothing's left now but a pale, cold face.