Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Learning to Live * * *


“Hey ducky, where you paddling off to now?” Marti giggled, her golden laugh echoing through my eardrums as I thrashed over to the docks. Panting, I struggled clumsily up onto the wooden planks, water streaming loudly off of me and all my floatation gimmicks. Marti glided easily through the water and pulled herself gracefully up onto the dock.

 

  “You ok?” She twisted her fingers through long, dark hair wringing out the salty water. She was Venus from the sea, her every movement the emblem of agility. I flopped on my back, kicking off my “duck feet”.

 “Sure, what could be wrong? I just about drowned out there.” I wrinkled my nose. Marti sighed and sat down next to me, her long legs hanging over the edge of the dock.

 

  “Meg, you never take any risks. I mean come on. You took swim lessons for two years and you still won’t take off those ridiculous floaties! Do you really need them?”

 

I tugged at the puffy yellow things on my arms, and readjusted my flippers.

 “I guess not, but I don’t like the idea of it just being me out there. In a pool there’s people everywhere and a lifeguard and everything. Here it’s just you and all the sharks.”

 

  Marti laughed again, and helped me up. “Megan, there aren’t any sharks around, I promise. And I would never let anything happen to you. Plus, my dad’s inside about a hundred feet away and there’s always boats going by.” I bit my lip, unconvinced.  “Just try it.” She smiled encouragingly, those deep sea blue eyes gleaming bright and kind.  “You’ll never make it out to the island in all those, and besides,” She tilted her head like a puppy. “Swimming isn’t the same with them on. You can’t feel free.” She turned to face the clear blue water, her eyes closed. She looked liked Lady Liberty, so wild and independent. I gave in.

  “Oh ok. I’ll be in, in a minute.”

Past Me


 

Some days the past just catches up too fast

And I wonder where myself has gone

As the years fly

I forget the paths that brought me

And then the day comes when I suddenly remember

And I see

And I wonder where myself has gone

Wishing I could stay the same forever

Am I still that girl from the photographs by the river?

Somewhere deep down she’s hiding

But too far for me to reach

Too far to remember

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

SNOW DAY... JK

Well here I am sitting in the computer lab all by myself, blasting my eardrums with way-too-loud music and writing on my blog. The school is weird when nobody's here. Just chillin' all alone in a creepy deserted school can be kind of odd. So I'm playing my music and resisting the urge to start serenading the world. The teachers might think it a little strange. Ahh the perks of being a teacher's kid.

YOU GET TO COME TO SCHOOL WHEN NO ONE ELSE HAS TO! :D

You should try it sometime. It's a blast.

It's kind of an ASB thing too. I've been here at the school in the pitch black trying not to get locked out of buildings while carrying piles of dance decorations all over campus. As a matter of fact, now that I think about it, I think I spend more time here than I do at my house.

Oh well. I don't really mind. It's my home away from home.

HOPE EVERYBODY ELSE IS ENJOYING THEIR SLEEP.



Saturday, January 12, 2013

Torn


 

I’m happy

I’m sad

I’m blessed

I’m alone

I’m surrounded

I’m afraid

I’m trusting God

I’m struggling

I’m laughing

I’m in love

I’m dizzy

 

I’m torn….
She died.

It hurt.

But she loved me.

 

He never noticed.

And that hurt.

But I learned to let go of the dream that he’d love me.

 

She left.

And that hurt more.

Because she used to love me.

 

He seemed to disappear.

And it hurt worse than anything I’ve ever felt.

But He came.

Because He loves me.

He’ll always love me.

And He’ll always stay.

I was wrong.

He never left.

And His love is all I need.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Oh dear you might not want to read this....

well guess who forgot to post? this girl
yep me
don't know how many words this is
don't care
arg
i am so tired
my head hurts
but today was nice in some ways
this is a stupid word to type
it always turns out thsi
so
obnoxious
obnoxious is a word my old friend taught me
i thought it was a pretty cool word
and she was pretty cool
but then she became a little obnoxious
but i guess everbody is sometimes
hey
guess what?
i don't know...
banana
is a yellow fruit
also a kind of pudding
a delicious pudding
sorry watched psych all day
really tired
i do nooooot want to go to school tomorrow :(
why do we go to school?
to learn you say?
learn what?
school?
not i
i go to learn the ways of humans
i really hope nobody is reading this still
hey guess what happened to me today?
not much but i found a sweater in my sister's closet that i know she won't want
and now....
IT'S MINE MINE ALL MINE!
yep
i knew you'd be excited
hey guess whaaaaaaaaaat?
alpacas are kinda cute
but lamas are nasty
very nasty
guess how much i don't want to go to school?
i think i would rather learn to play the harp
hey
guess what?


COPERNICUS CALLED AND YOU ARE NOT THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE.

and that's my final word on the subject.

Monday, January 7, 2013

HEY PEOPLE I WROTE A POEM

Just dream
Endless dream
Fly away
Don't pull me down
But here I am
Still here I am
Try again
Escape
Success
Dream of beauty
Dream of freedom
Dream of endless possibilities
But here it comes
Go away
Leave me here
No
Please no
Too late
Reality snatches me away again
And down we fall
Back to the earth
Back to the life I'm forced to lead
Back to happy nothings
Back to wasting away
Back to Them
Back to the same of the same.